About Me!

HOWDY! I'M JASON!

I'm just your average disabled genderqueer enby dog... thing. I'm selectively mute, hearing impaired, and visually impaired. I have a nice soup of mental health issues & physical health issues including, but not limited to: C-PTSD, DPDR, some sorta reproductive health nightmare, and long covid.



AGE.
24+
GENDER.
Genderqueer / Nonbinary / Cyberdog
PRONOUNS.
They / It / Xe / Pup & Es / Xier (auf Deutsch, bitte!)
BIRTHDATE.
March 15, 2000
LANGUAGES.
Eng / Ger

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INFO !!

Some terms I use to describe my identity and orientation include: Ambiamorous, Cybercoric* Cyberdog*, Cybertransmasc / Cyber Transmasc*, Nonbinary, Polyamorous, Queer, Transgender, Transmasculine, Aromantic, Allosexual, Genderqueer, and Gender Outlaw! I'm okay with both neutral and masculine compliments and honorifics.

* Cybercoric is an aesthetigender / xenogender coined by FairyStar-Fag on Tumblr! The meaning of this identity is "an aesthetigender related to cybercore. May also bear relation to: cyberwave, cyberpunk, cybergoth, webcore, y2k, animecore, techno, lofi, 8bit, breakcore, hyperpop, unreality, virtual reality, old internet, artificial intelligence, etc. May be used as a prefix. (Ex: cybergirl, cyberboy, etc.)"

* Cyberdog is a xenogender coined by BurgerLabs on Tumblr! The meaning of this identity is "a gender that is connected to being both a dog and any tech-based species. The 'dog' part in question can be any species, and can be due to being doggender, dog otherkin & therian, nonhuman, etc. The 'cyber' part can refer to robots, computers, AI, computer programs, etc."

* Cybertransmasc / Cyber Transmasc is an xenogender coined by Not-Malw4re / Grief-Chapter on Tumblr! The meaning of this identity is "a gender relating to technology, computers, cyber security, the internet, etc. and being transmasc."


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MISC. INFORMATION

I'm a college graduate with a bachelor's degree focused on social work and correctional support management. I aim to work in mental health advocacy, and want to focus on marginalized / underrepresented populations.

I've also gotten into Formula 1 again, but I used to be a more consistent fan during the mid 2010s (shoutout Sebastian Vettel). If you wanna know who I'm out here cheering on, here's your one-stop shop!


VIDEO GAME QUOTES THAT HAVE FOREVER CHANGED MY PSYCHE (Show/Hide)

This list is a work in progress. Code-styled dialog is used to distinguish characters in conversational quotes. These are some of my favorite quotes from the games/franchises I have played, and so I wanted to catalogue them as they are important to me. Plus, I want to share them with others!

CALL OF DUTY

  • " Captain, I can't stop it. What do I do? " " Let it go, Ethan. " " I can't, sir. You're my commanding officer, Captain. My mission is you. "

DRAGON AGE

  • " All of this happened because of fanatics and arguments about the next world. It's time we start believing in this one. "

DISCO ELYSIUM

  • " No. This is somewhere to be. This is all you have, but it's still something. Streets and sodium lights. The sky; the world. You're still alive. "
  • " And then we feel trapped by the names we've been given, as symbols of the intentions and expectations of others... "
  • " As long as there is mankind, there is also meaning. "
  • " As you slowly reach your hand toward the surface of the mirror... Abort! You clearly have not thought this through. You won't like what you will see there -- and you will never un-become it. "
  • " There is nothing. Only warm, primordial blackness. Your conscience ferments in it--no larger than a single grain of malt. You don't have to do anything anymore. Ever. Never ever. "
  • " Brother, you already were a ghost. Up there, screaming--along with all of them. Scaring each other. Haunting each other. It's the living who are ghosts. The dead are silent. They don't rattle windows or write letters in blood. The living do. Leave them behind; Rest. "
  • " That we continue to persist at all is a testament to our faith in one another. "
  • " 'This world is enough,' she concludes. " " It *must* be. This is the greatest and kindest arrangement the atoms had in them. "
  • " Why should we just leave and leave -- and the world get left behind? "
  • " Can't you see how kind and beautiful everything is? " " Beautiful world. Beautiful aerodrome. " " 'See?' She smiles -- as if a weight is lifted off her shoulders. " "The weight is you and your hate. "

FALLOUT

  • " The thing about happiness is you only know you had it when it's gone. You may think to yourself that you're happy, but you don't really believe it. "
  • " I'm sorry. You're a hero... and you have to leave. "
  • " By the time you get this, I will be someone else. It's the price I pay for my liberation. My final act of rebellion against a system I no longer believe in. "
  • " Maybe the only point of all this living was to keep those pictures in my head going for as long as I could. It was the only life I could give you. Not a day went by without. It wasn't a choice--I chose to die again and again. Just never did. Body had it's own drive. "
  • " Calm is what you have to be when people look to you. And it's all you can be when things are out of your hands. "

GOD OF WAR

  • " Fate only binds you if you let it. Do what is necessary, not because it is written. "
  • " We will bear the weight of our mistakes not with guilt, but with foosteps heavy with purpose. "
  • " Am I hearing guilt, brother? " " Some... Perhaps imagining a fair fight is to honor them as life did not. "
  • " I will rain down every agony--every violation imaginable--upon you. I will parade your cold body from every corner of every realm, and feed your soul to the vilest filth in Hel. That is my promise. "
  • " I am what the Gods have made me! "
  • " Don't you know what I have done? " " Yes! ... But what will you do now? " " We don't change. We... are destroyers. " " No more. No more... For the sake of our children; We must be better. "
  • " But there is one unavoidable truth you will never escape: You cannot change. You will always be a monster. " " I know. But I am your monster no longer. "
  • " We were all fooled. " " Oh... but some of us were bigger fools than others, aren't we? I gave you everything. My skills, my friendship, my home, my secrets, my treasures... and you just kept taking. And now what have I got? Not even my family. You want sorry? This is what sorry looks like. "

HEAVEN WILL BE MINE

  • " I bleed too. "
  • " Letting you keep this is my gift to you, Luna-Terra, your favorite and loosest leash. Prove to me you've learned not to choke on it. "
  • " And more terrifying than the finesse is her gentleness, spooling matter like threads in the tiny galaxy of which she is the sun. "
  • " So let me fight for that! Stop protecting me, stop making me fight for you. "
  • " I am happy for everything I learned. Not for everything you taught me. "
  • " Now we're grown up and can see our own futures, and mess them up if we want. I'm way happier to fight now. Fighting has a different meaning now. "
  • " It's not a mystery to me why someone would like to earn the approval of someone who treats them as if they don't deserve it. It's an intoxicating feeling. "
  • " Sometimes two things are true. In this place, gravity is quietly degenerating, and distances are becoming ambiguous, between past and present, between me and you. "
  • " You're not the only one who can fuck with the narrative. "
  • " Are you scared? " " Yeah. You? " " Yeah. But I'm excited, too. I'm looking forward to what we could be. "
  • " It's made of a last minute miracle. It loves it best when it's just waiting on the edge between onen possibility and another, tempting fate and not caring where it lands. "
  • " Tides come from people, and people are people. Whether they get there being taught, or being made. "
  • " I didn't deserve it, but I'll never feel guilty about it. I had too much at stake to feel guilty when I got everything I wanted. "
  • " Send a message to everyone: I'll take care of the past. So you can seize the future. Ready for launch. "
  • " I wonder if it's just because it feels so new, or if there's something really wrong with me. "
  • " It's when they surprise me that I'm the happiest of all. That's when I really feel we're not doomed, set in stone, always making the same mistakes. "
  • " I have fought so hard every day for it. Of course it's worth it. "
  • " They know she's not invincible. They know her real truth, that no one who loves her can see. They have the patience and power to take it apart piece by piece. They will strip her down, atom by atom if they have to, until she loses mass and gravity and becomes only a girl again. Pluto wouldn't mind if they were trying to kill her. "
  • " You gave me permission, you said this was okay, but I don't know if you really knew what it would be. "

HITMAN

  • " He's only a terrorist if you win. "
  • " You know him. " " Better than anyone. "
  • " You were always the best. Nobody ever came close. You defined the art, and it defines you. Your actions have changed the world. Powerful men have fallen by your hand; but by the same token, others have risen. Do you realize what kind of world you've been shaping? Does the ICA? Does your handler? I live in that world. I have seen the consequences. I have felt the cost. That's what defines me. "
  • " Second thoughts? Perhaps we do understand each other after all. Go on then, free yourself. Lucas Grey was haunted by his humanity, but freedom from choice is also freedom. Everything is so much simpler in black and white. "
  • " I have found that whoever wields the sword decides who holds the pen. "
  • " My dear child, look at me. Do you really think that I fear death? I only fear dying a traitor. So go on ahead, and try your worst. "
  • " Legends die. I'm alive. "

METAL GEAR

  • " Find something to believe in, and find it for yourself. When you do, pass it on to the future. "
  • " So then what is an enemy? Is there such thing as an absolute, timeless enemy? There is no such thing, and never has been. And the reason is that our enemies are human beings like us. They can only be our enemies in relative terms. "
  • " I raised you, and loved you. I've given you weapons, taught you tecniques, endowed you with knowledge. There's nothing more for me to give you. All that's left for you to take is my life. "
  • " Life isn't just about passing on your genes. We can leave behind much more than just DNA. Through speech, music, literature and movies... what we've seen, heard, felt... anger, joy and sorrow... these are the things I will pass on. That's what I live for. "
  • " You too have known loss, and that loss torments you still. You hope hatred might someday replace the pain. But it never goes away. It makes a man hideous, inside and out. Wouldn't you agree? "
  • "I won't scatter your sorrow to the heartless sea. I will always be with you--Plant your roots in me. I won't see you end as ashes. You're all diamonds."
  • " Vengeance was what drove me to them... The only language left to me: Revenge. But the words we shared... No, that was no language at all. That is why I chose the language of gratitude instead, and go back to silence. "