April Recap (2025)

ORIGINALLY WRITTEN: April 2025

NOTES: Another notch in the (bed)post.

Uhm. Hi! I existed again this month!

It was really a rough month again and to be honest, I think I got to a point of depersonalization and dissociation that I genuinely could not tell you what happened beyond that it... did.

I looked at last month's entry and used that as a sort of guideline for what to talk about because of that. So. Yeah!

Work and volunteering are still going really well. I've really found a rhythm and I feel at home with the team. As for work, it's work. It's a bit draining, but that's the cost of doing social media moderation in this day and age!

Being on birth control proves once more to be beneficial! No drastic changes but I also had a period this past month and it was normal as it could be. Still heavy, but not too terrible beyond dealing with the iron deficiency.

I did quit D&D entirely. The only campaign I was still playing in, I dropped this past week, and I've effectively dropped the one I've been DM'ing. The hobby just gave me too much anxiety with everything else going on in my life.

That said, I've found some joy in hobbies again! I've been playing a lot more games (Minecraft, DOOM, Elder Scrolls Online, Animal Crossing, etc) and being a little more involved with those. I even started doing art again now that I've upgraded my phone! It's been a fun process, long and tedious as it is.

Really, this month was just kind of me making peace with the fact that I feel like shit, the world is shit, and I need to focus on the small comforts if I'm going to live in spite of everything telling me I shouldn't.

And I continue to exist. See y'all next month!