May Recap (2025)

ORIGINALLY WRITTEN: May 2025

NOTES: Brother you should put me in front of a firing squad.

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So. This month was a month. It was the passage of time over the course of approximately 31 days out of the 365 that exist in the Gregorian calendar year.

I'm going to be so fucking for real, things have not gotten better. In many regards. I'll try not to make this a huge thing and just hone in on simple categories but... wow.

Work! It exists. It's been steady, believe it or not. Two weeks out of the month we were offered bonus pay for reaching a certain number of hours, then one week outside of that they offered us extra hours (as part time employees we can only work 20/week). I will say, I hate a lot of shit that's trending on social media right now. I moderate social media content so I see what's being pushed in the algorithms and... man. It is grim. AI makes shit so grim.

Volunteering! Great; finding my balance with work and getting used to the flow. Not so great news coming with it, considering the uh... everything. Going on wrt the current President and the nationwide lack of support for trans folks. Which btw, how crazy is it that the majority of Americans support the policies being pushed on state and federal levels? That's so crazy right. Please tell me you find that just as crazy as I do, so that I do not feel crazy for saying I feel so little support—

Health! Shit. Birth control? Great. Phenomenal. Changes are working and I've felt a lot better there. I did, however, almost give myself heat stroke literally just the other day (20th) by trying to go for a nature walk. I had to stop every probably 50 feet and sit on the side of the road. I thought I was going to throw up every time I drank. I could hardly walk straight. I slept over 17 hours that night. But I lived, bitch!

Mental health! ... [through gritted teeth] i will not let suicidal ideation win. i will not respond to the news with half-jokes about killing myself. i will allow myself to feel emotions and work on healthily processing them, for my sake and the sake of those who care about me—

Other stuff! Mother's Day was really nice. I got to spoil my mom since I have my own income. We ordered pizza and watched Venom: The Last Dance since she's a huge fan of Venom. Which is really funny because she like, despises superhero movies. But she loves that fucked up lil guy. Currently planning what to do for Father's Day. Also planning to buy prescription sunglasses and trans tape to have a hot tboy summer. Really wishing my partner was here so we could try to sneak off to pride events... but given the state of things, and especially the culture here in Florida? Maybe it's best we didn't.

Anyway. I exist and we persist through the fucking horrors. Just like Doom Guy :-)